Hey Folks,
WOW! What a trip I have had. I feel I've been run over by a truck. I'm starting to pick myself up from the ground. Within the past 6 months I have lost both my mother and father. I miss them both like crazy. As most of you know, I was their primary caregiver. I quit my job around Christmas time to spend more time with my dad after my mother passed away. My last 6 months with dad has got to be the most rewarding, yet saddest time of my life. My father's health deterioated daily. The cancer was eating him alive. Witnessing first hand the effects of such a horrid, dreadful disease was quite excruciatingly painful. i've lived through hell. I'm am at peace and know my folks are together again for eternity.
Alot has happened on the health fron as well. As a result of the countless sleepless nights with dad and the stress of being unemployed, about 45lbs has crept back on me. I felt horrible with myself for letting that happen. Sometimes when situations like this get in the way, it's hard to keep with it. I'm suprsed I have not gained any more than that. The good news though is that I've already lost 21 of the 45 pounds I gained within the last 2 weeks. I'm back and at it more than ever.
My parents' passings have inspired me to finish my book and live my life. I will be completing the book, which has been in the works for the past few years, over the next month. I'm looking to have it in stores and available by January 8, 2010 - my old man's birthday. He was so proud of me and made sure he told me that he beleived in me. He beleived that I will be making a difference. I'm up for that challenge!
I've decided to sell our home here in Brooklin and am looking to take a road trip out to Los Angeles. I need some ME time and need to detox my mind. My dad suggested I take a long long trip at the end of our ordeal. I'm looking to travel accross the United States with my final destination being California. I will be staying with friends and getting a ton of "book" stuff and marketing done while I'm there. I'm totally stoked and looking forward to finally being in charge of my life again. It's hard to keep your life in check when you're so busy making sure other's are fine. I have no regrets with the time I spent with my folks. It's been a month since dad has passed away and I'm slowly picking up the peices. Every day is hard and I try my best to not think of the past few months. Sadly, it's the last 2-3 months that are vivid in my mind and I'm trying my utmost best to forget about the suffering he had endured. I can see how many people in my situation can easily fall into a depression. It's hard not to think about negative stuff when things are so fresh in your mind. I have a great circle of friends whom are opening their arms out to me and being there while I gather my stuff. thanks guys!!
I'm looking forward to the next 6 months...I am getting back into shape and will definitely be in tip top form for the launch of my book. I'm coming back full force my friends!!! Look forward to regualr updates - I PROMISEEEEEEE!!!!
In the meantime, I do hope you are all keeping fit and enjoying life. The weather here has been shitty, hopefully we get to see a summer.
Take care all and visit my website to put your name on my book pre-order list!! www.massivemeltdown.com
Hugs and Peace All
Charles
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